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12月15日 Cloudy, againEven when I was still in bed, I knew is was cloudy. This kind of weather is best for having long sleep but I finally got myself out of bed. The temperature dropped so much. Yesterday was so warm and it gave me the hope that the winter would be over soon then today it just had it shattered, I hate it. I watched the movie(always movies) Leaving Las Vegas last night before I went to bed. It is such a sad movie, reminding me of a lot of similar situations. What kind of things could one do when he is totally despaired, what if life is totally at odds? So I thought a lot, which I should not do but I could not help. It made me sad and scared and awake. So I guess it took me really long to fall asleep. But I have to go. Sometimes I tell myself it is gonna be ok and it works, so I told myself the same thing today. It did turn out to be a smooth day, no surprises. It is so cold outside so I put on the coat, which used to be Wuji's. It is such a large coat and I looked silly in it. I could imagine Wuji would look more silly than me in it since he is more slender. Bad weather is for nostalgia, but I have to shrug off all my feelings and step forward. 12月14日 The Sixth Sense--a movie that touches meLast night, I was staying up late, watching a movie called The Sixth Sense. It is an old movie and I am sure a lot of people have seen it before, even myself I remember I saw this one more than once on TV, but never saw it completely. It is a story mainly about a Child psychiatrist(Bruce Willis) and a little boy who can see ghosts. Well, there are indeed some scenes that might be scary to some people, with the bleeding dead people walking. But this is not the main point of the story. I think this story is about love and trust. I always remember what the little boy's mom said to him every time he said something scary and weird to most of us: look at my face, honey, do I look like that I think you are a freak? Well, back to the title, why it touches me? I think it is the part when the boy and his mom sitting in the car, waiting for the road to be cleared because of a car accident. The boy said to his mom he was ready to communicate with her, about what he was afraid of , about he could see ghosts. Then he told his mom about his grandma, his mother's mother, who loved his mom and his mom loved a lot. The way the boy's mom cried when she heard about all of these, is exactly the way I expected. It is like crying out from the heart, but more subtle. You can see that she was trying to but finally failing to maintain her composure. This short part, is probably the most mesmerizing and touching scene of the whole movie. I really had fun of watching this part, twice~ Anyway, it's been a while for me to find something like this, cool~ 12月10日 好冷！ 今天巨冷！终于过冬天的感觉，学校里树木萧索，从parking lot估计，最近人也开始减少，又有要过节的意思了~跑了一趟之后，没什么收获，回来心也收不住，就在网上闲逛看新闻八卦。注意到今天的一条消息是朱棣文要被提名能源部长，要是真得就好了，至少代表在美华人地位提升，新的政府注意到华裔人才的能力。当然有人可能要说我们又开始自作多情，不过我确实看到有一条报道说:Chu, as an Asian-American, could add diversity to the new government.也不知道几年之后，像我以前说的一样，Steven 的弟弟，一个extremely accomplished lawyer会不会也走进美国政府~ 又乱操心了，下午太阳出来，开始暖和一点。 如果可以就是这样呆在房间里，什么也不需要担心，懒洋洋的就好了！ 11月14日 The Science of Happiness--Random Notes from Tal Ben-Shahar’s talk, a very inspiring one
11月6日 24-Hour Flu/Drunk记得有一次和Orange师姐聊天说到失眠，然后我说我试着数羊还有想象自己漂在大海上，结果都不管用，师姐说喝点小酒会管用。那天我去超市看见一个老奶奶对着那个摆酒的架子的一种看样子是新牌子的酒左看右看， 然后我就过去搭讪：Is it good?她笑着说：I don't know, I just wanna try it!于是我也拿了一瓶，想着失眠的时候派上用场，说：I wanna try it TOO~ 可是后来证明这个决定是很麻烦的，原来酒瓶里面是木塞，我没有这种开瓶器。想着将来也许还会用得上，我就买了一个。那瓶酒才两块多，而这个开瓶器价格是它的三倍。前天晚上睡不着，我终于觉得这瓶酒要派上用场了，然后就喝了一些，想着马上睡着，明天晚点起也没关系。昨天早晨我大概不到八点就醒了，而且头脑不是通常那种恩，再睡一会糊里糊涂的，而是异常的清醒。然后我就觉得头特别疼，就想一定是喝多了；可是我的膝关节也疼，难道是我最近作仰卧起坐和下蹲的原因；好像其他关节也有点疼，而且我在发烧。 我终于意识到一个事实：我生病了！在黑暗中我摸了摸五官还都在原处，舒了一口气。我想一定是最近我断断续续的感冒还有我的亚健康终于爆发，所以虽然我一点睡意都没有，还是在床上辗转了几个小时直到室友说要去吃饭。于是跑出去吃饭，可是吃了几口就一点胃口都没了，结果都带回来。然后去办公室给老板回了mail之后就跑回家倒头便睡，迷迷糊糊的觉得自己冷热交加，出了很多汗，然后就是醒醒睡睡，晚上7，8点又回了老板几封mail,然后吃了点水果喝水睡觉出汗，大概11点的时候终于觉得想吃东西了，我意识到自己要好了，本来还想今天无论如何要去看医生了。然后吃了带回来的东西，看了看新闻就睡着了。今天早晨起来，头疼关节疼都没了，也几乎不发烧了，90%好了，我真想说：健康真好呀！10月28日 Update~感冒终于爆发，肯定是因为最近早晚温差太大， 而我也像是中了剧毒一样忽冷忽热。体质越来越下降，考虑到身材越来越趋于梨形，决定每天早晚作仰卧起坐，记得小学的时候体育测验我一分钟也可以做上40几个没问题啊，现在用10倍的时间做这么多，然后肚皮还在隐隐作痛； 上周日上课，班上的一位女士说她找不到那个video的网址，然后我就告诉她，她说，哦，Gena说她去看了没找到；我作出疑惑的表情表示不知道谁是 Gena,她就说是坐在她旁边的那位女士,我才恍然大悟原来她们是好朋友,怪不得每次都有说有笑特别熟落.上课的时候同我之前说话的那位对老师说明年也许她就去欧洲,去比利时,然后还要给她的孩子们请法语老师上课;老师说孩子们的爸爸不会讲法语吗。那位女士说孩子们的爸爸是美国人，她们离婚了，然后她现在的男友是比利时人，他们打算明年结婚。然后她又说，其实Gena和她前夫结婚了，他们是一对现在！然后我又发挥了八卦的本质，心里想，这样的情节，不应该是她和Gena是死敌或者不相往来互当空气的吗，可是她们还是有说有笑还那么好，至少看上去，觉得挺drama的. 最近在youtube上看了好多电影啊，都是年轻的片，年轻真好啊，可惜。。。昨天开车的时候听到一巨好听的歌，结果晚上就被我搜到，就是Cranberries的Zombie,听了N遍，不要说我old(不得不说,Faye的声音和她的真像阿!!!) 10月22日 Why do all good things come to an endHonestly what will become of me *Flames to dust Traveling I only stop at exits *Flames to dust Well the dogs were whistling a new tune *Flames to dust ------------------------------------------------------------ 脑袋里突然就跳出这首歌，然后就在youtube上找来听~虽然这本应该是一首伤感的歌，Nelly却唱得蛮欢快的，我可以一直听这首歌也不会烦，歌词也很好，是啊，why do all good things come to an end??所以虽然这也算一首不新的歌了，还是推荐！-- All good things(come to an end)10月8日 When can I quit google?最近用google的时候老是出来那个“系统怀疑你是机器人，请输入确认码”的页面，真是令人恼火。不过想想我每天google无数次,感觉没它就不能正常生活了，什么时候我能quit google呢？ 10月3日 从何时起，我也变成了一个内心充满anger的人我常常惊讶于一些人的愤世嫉俗，也会想为什么他们会充满愤怒，这些anger是从哪里来的 ，可是今天，我突然意识到，我也变成了一个内心充满anger的人。
且不说今天的引子又是令人讨厌的Waterview，也不说我是有道理的，他们的staff无知+lying，总之我发现心中有一股怨气， 我觉得这样不好。人生路很长，有一些事情也要总结学习：
1）在和这样的人或者机构打交道，如果你先lose tempor,你自己就先输了。最近在咱班谁的blog上又见这句话，可惜我都是在事情结束才想起来，告诉自己不要生气不要生气，可是我今天又不争气的输了；
2）清楚自己争取的是什么，如果最后发现argue的东西已经远离了自己的初衷，那很无聊；
3）和1）相似，要保持镇定，讲话有清晰有条理；
4）如果一件事情，对自己却没什么实质影响的，适当放一马，就当攒rp，不然有可能还给自己凭添烦恼；
5）自己有道理有关切身利益的事情，一定要把自己的道理讲清楚把利益争取回来；
6）涉及利益的，proof talks。所以有关程序的，一定要把每个留paper proof之类的，不清楚的，要求对方弄清楚；
7）遇到不合理的事情时，不是先生其，而是去分析，争取回来自己的利益；
最近的郁闷事还很多的，要攒rp，身心健康~ 9月7日 很惭愧今天放了老大的鸽子。本来是约好今天早晨8点打电话给他，然后我也把手机的闹表定到7：30。昨天晚上和HS讲电话讲到太晚，以至于被手机叫醒我还昏昏沉沉，就想8点的话还有一会，结果一小睡就睡到了9点多，汗！亏我还一直觉得自己是个时间观念很强的人~~如果是别人这样放我鸽子我肯定要特别不爽然后大发雷霆了。真是对不住阿老大~
这不仅让我想起我刚来这里的时候，当时还是和我那个很sweet的印度老板，好像是学期要结束，正好我很忙得在做那个试验连着几天熬夜。老板说要请我吃饭那天，约好11点半。结果因为我头一天晚上run程序通宵，一睡就睡到12点多，后来还是老板从系里找到我电话打到我apartment找我，我居然很镇定的说刚起，然后我们1点才去吃饭，-_-!我的现身说法说明一个良好的作息习惯是多么重要啊！
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最近旁边新开了一家sprout，我在他们家买了好几个环保袋，这个礼拜买菜的时候我特别记得带上，算了一下，我这次应该省了10多个塑料袋，环境保护人人有责阿。可能是最近太闲了，我就得找无数的小事来把每天塞满，去上个accent reduction program,报个班，去图书馆看电影，宅在家里看无聊的电影，去买个pepper mint chocolate,到楼下去游泳，在youtube上看以前的康熙，或者干脆就睡觉，就是没做什么正事，我还真是无聊的紧阿。看来得赶快figure out要做什么，要怎么做然后做了。如果每周可以许个愿的话我希望我下个礼拜不这么无聊。
Happy Birthday,QQ~ 5月29日 FutureFor most of the times U are trying so hard To achieve something, and suddenly U Realize that the best thing you can do is to accept Everything without too much struggling |
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