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4月10日

这两天很X的几个新闻

1)  周某某代言电动单车天价超王菲:这个新闻写得有没有脑袋阿, 萝卜白菜是一样的吗~代言电动车和洗发水一样吗~有本事也来代言洗发水比比。据说还要什么亲自设计麻烦的一P,我们阿菲甩甩头发2000万就到手拉,还要那么麻烦~话说阿菲要是真的代言那个洗发水我就去买,不过消息真的话真得有人买哪个什么亲自设计的电动车吗,怀疑某某智商,大家为了安全不要去买哪个电动车~

 

2)  钟某某“饭局价”力压王菲:这个最恼残!有人敢饭局王菲吗,她肯定不会去呀,绝对一个白眼二话不说让你走人~这个什么饭局是什么光荣的事情啊还这么大肆宣传。不过好似这个钟某某人品还ok,就不多说了。

 

3)  张亚东退出乐坛是气话坦言没了王菲挺失落:到不管这个新闻什么事情,好像张还算诚实可是那些白痴记者老是写什么没有张就没有王菲的样子。实际情况是,王菲是天生的歌唱家,艺术家,没有王菲绝对不会有今天的张亚东(指不定在那个胡同混呢),但是没有张王菲还是今天的王菲(或者更好)。他那些歌除了闷好像都可以归入王菲不太受众的一类,尤其那首精彩我实在觉得真的不精彩。 希望王菲这次出来彻底抛开他,好好弄张专辑~

 

归根到底,虽然说这些新闻很白痴,但是我还是看了,说明还是有效果的。不过也证明王菲的号召力啊,标题家两个字点击率就上去拉。

3月26日

一大堆很烦的随便列列

1)27了。根据最新研究表明,人的精力和智力在22岁时候达到顶峰,而在27岁开始迈入老年人的行列!难怪我这5年越来越颓,而且好像走出低迷是很难的,但是人要有希望。

2)哇,这两天的新闻是我们的王菲要出来了,也不知道有生之年还能不能看到她的演唱会~

3)最近看了一堆杂七杂八的电视剧电影,但是回想起来好像都没什么印象了,看来都很垃圾;春假的时候看了李胖子以前很喜欢的《苗翠花》,还可以。

4)春假之前借的两本书看来要搁浅了,全都被垃圾片挤占了!

5)在想,要是卖不掉的话,回家休息半年也挺好的。

6)有的时候沉迷于遥远虚幻的东西,可以抽身却继续。。。

7)这个礼拜的周一应该是我屈指可数的最难过得几天之一,好多事情是在长痛和短痛还有饮鸩止渴之间摇摆。做成事情要脸皮厚,但是痛苦的是有些事情可以选择不做,有些却不能不作。

8)要学好英文,那天又看了一遍那个棒子的video,然后觉得自己讲得都流畅了很多, 推荐一个website:

http://forum.wgbh.org/

无聊的时候找来听听,还不错。等我英文学好了,我还要学法文什么的,为什么UNopening都是HR的工作呢?!

9)给自己订了个新耳机,就又可以听歌了

10)。。。生命无限。。。

1月16日

Get started from reading--the 13th book of J.A.Jance's Sheriff Joanna Brady

Happy Niu Year!

As you might notice, Chinese Niu year is approaching and the solar calendar for 2009 already started. I remember at the beginning of 2008, I thought I could finish reading 50 books by the end of the year; however, I only finished the 12 books of J.A.Jance's Sheriff Joanna Brady series. How I picked up the series is totally a random incident, but I got obsessed with it right away. Back then the last book was in 2006. Then today I looked it up and found the new book already came out, called <Damage Control>. I tried to find it in the local library's catalog, and indeed, they have it. But all the three copies had been checked out and the earliest date for returning is the end of this month. I was so disappointed at first. Then I thought maybe I could see if we got it here in the school's library. I did not give it much hope since I did not find the previous books before. However, it turned out to be my lucky day! We got it here and still it was available. So I went to the library and found the book. When I checked it out, the librarian said:" It is a popular one". I went like:"Yes?"
"Yes, I picked up one of her books the other night and it seemed interesting!"
"Oh, I' ve actually been following this series."
Then she opened the book, checked the inside of the cover, saying "Oh, is it about the guy...?"
"No, it is the female Sheriff, Joanna Brady. There are totally 11 or 12 books. I just feel related because the story is in
Arizona, quite similar to here."
Then the other librarian came closer, said:"J. A. Jance? She came here."
"Really?"
"Yes, at Barns&Nobles."
Then my librarian explained to me why the leisure readings should be returned in three weeks. I told her that would be fine and I would definitely finished it by then, thinking that I finished the first books in the first month of last year.

So, way to go.

12月22日

Little kids, big society

I finally had my car towed to the car service today. After I came back to my apartment I realized Waterview arranged a kitchen clean up for us since QY moved out and some new member will join us next month. This is exactly what I had been looking forward to, I certainly mean the clean up! These lovely Mexican janitors are awesome, they can make your kitchen totally shining in just 2 hours. I had the urge to go out and give them some tips and say "Feliz Navidad", but they left before I did so.

As my car was totally unavailable and we did not want to ruin the shining kitchen, QN asked Amir if he wanted to go to dinner together, and he said yes, so finally we three and Amir's girlfriend Elizabeth sat at a table in Taiwan Cafe enjoying our dinner. The below-zero temperature outside made the conversation over the dinner especially cozy. Elizabeth mentioned a Chinese movie she and Amir saw the other day, called "Please Vote for Me". It' s a documentary about a class monitor vote in some Chinese Primary school and how the kids conducted the vote. And she said she would like to know what we thought of it because she did not know how to react to it. I remembered I saw some brief introduction of it long time ago, so I just said, out of my experience, maybe the director wanted to criticize some phenomenon in the adult society by what happened in this kids' community. When we got back, I decided to search it online to see if I could find more detailed introduction of it. It turned out there was an online video. So I simply watched the whole movie. It was very fun and it also proved my initial answer was not correct. Now I think the director maybe wants to probe, at least tentatively, the definition of democracy. I will not give an ornate description of the story, but the sophisticates of the kids shocked me. It is a very thought-revoking story, but only because I am not politics and sociology sensitive, I do not know how to react to it either. I do not remember the last Chinese movie I saw, maybe "Painted Skin", which was also weeks ago. However, "Please Vote for Me" is the kind of movie I do not want to miss.




12月19日

He said my golden line

Because of some reason, the professor extended the deadline of the project to yesterday, which made the grading a little "nerve-racking" since today is the day for grade uploading, if some student is not satisfied with the grading, it would make the whole thing a lot more complicated. From 12:00 at noon I was grading it and everything was ok until around 10:30pm, suddenly I could not access the network disk. I found there was not enough space, only around 700M free space for the whole more than 550G disk. After some unsuccessful try I decided to give it a break and  sent an e-mail to the technical staff,  then I went back home and directly went to bed thinking I could get up early today to complete it on time.

I set a record of getting up early for this month at 8:30am and went to my office hoping the staff replied to my mail, but to my disappointment, I found nothing in my mailbox. I tried the network disk but it was still not working. So I decided to call them directly. It turned out there was really something wrong with it, some people put 100G stuff on the disk last night and they were working on it, but no idea how long it would take. This really made me nervous so I decided to call the professor to tell him the situation.  However, the number was wrong, but I figured he made one error on the area number so finally I got through. He was on the way to the office and said he would call me to go there when he got in.  So after I got his phone call I went to his office.

"When you want the grades?" I asked.
"ASAP" he smiled.
"But I called them and they had no idea how long it would take. When it's back to work, I will finish it as soon as possible."
"Well, you can give them to me tomorrow"
"No, I can not! the website is going through the maintenance from tomorrow! "
So here comes the golden line:"Oh, maintenance, Life is difficult~"

It turned out they fixed the problem very quickly. Then I went back to work on the grading. Suddenly the power in our building went off~ Right that moment, "Life is difficult" was echoing in my head. Fortunately the power was back very soon and I finished my task on time. But I am still thinking about sharing some interesting comments  with the professor from some student's file: This project is long as HELL. We already got enough workload from other classes. It is ridiculous. 

Oh, BTW, summer is back too and it feels like having lost 20 pounds by taking off those warm clothes.

12月17日

Bad weather there too

Just got an e-mail from my advisor saying that they got tons of snow there. We have really bad weather here too, cold, wet and foggy.  This long rainy and snowy weather cast another shadow on my luck, the car still stuck there. Well, having a car is indeed a good thing, only when it has not become a money sucker. I was trying to find a case when one's mood could totally unaffected  by money then I found none. It is sort of always adding something extra, either happier or unhappier. I used to say it's not worthwhile of being unhappy because of money but I think I will miss my dear $1000 or so.

Without having lunch and starved, I felt totally refreshed and energized after having a good dinner.  Gotta work all day long for the following two days. Cant not wait for the days after.  Everything will be fine then.

12月16日

Unfortunate things never come alone, do they?

Just name a few:
1)Right eye hurts, oh, wait, I can feel it;
2)Extremely bad weather;
3) The steering wheel of my car got locked up, and still locked( so if anyone knows how to unlock it, please help~ Even though I succeeded once before, not this time:();
4)Need to talk to my advisor later, not prepared yet, and I am still here writing something meaningless;


12月15日

Cloudy, again

Even when I was still in bed, I knew is was cloudy.  This kind of weather is best for having long sleep but I finally got myself out of bed. The temperature dropped so much. Yesterday was so warm and it gave me the hope that the winter would be over soon then today it just had it shattered, I hate it. I watched the movie(always movies) Leaving Las Vegas last night before I went to bed. It is such a sad movie, reminding me of a lot of similar situations. What kind of things could one do when he is totally despaired, what if life is totally at odds? So I thought a lot, which I should not do but I could not help. It made me sad and scared and awake. So I guess it took me really long to fall asleep. But I have to go. Sometimes I tell myself it is gonna be ok and it works, so I told myself the same thing today. It did turn out to be a smooth day, no surprises.

It is so cold outside so I put on the coat, which used to be Wuji's. It is such a large coat and I looked silly in it. I could imagine Wuji would look more silly than me in it since he is more slender. Bad weather is for nostalgia, but I have to shrug off all my feelings and step forward. 


12月14日

The Sixth Sense--a movie that touches me

Last night, I was staying up late, watching a movie called The Sixth Sense. It is an old movie and I am sure a lot of people have seen it before, even myself I remember I saw this one more than once on TV, but never saw it completely.  It is a story mainly about a Child psychiatrist(Bruce Willis) and a little boy who can see ghosts. Well, there are indeed some scenes that might be scary to some people, with the bleeding dead people walking. But this is not the main point of the story. I think this story is about love and trust. I always remember what the little boy's mom said to him every time he said something scary and weird to most of us: look at my face, honey, do I look like that I think you are a freak?

Well, back to the title, why it touches me? I think it is the part when the boy and his mom sitting in the car, waiting for the road to be cleared because of a car accident. The boy said to his mom he was ready to communicate with her, about what he was afraid of , about he could see ghosts. Then he told his mom about his grandma, his mother's mother, who loved his mom and his mom loved a lot. The way the boy's mom cried when she heard about all of these, is exactly the way I expected. It is like crying out from the heart, but more subtle. You can see that she was trying to but finally failing to maintain her composure. This short part, is probably the most mesmerizing and touching scene of the whole movie. I really had fun of watching this part, twice~ Anyway, it's been a while for me to find something like this, cool~

12月10日

好冷!

今天巨冷!终于过冬天的感觉,学校里树木萧索,从parking lot估计,最近人也开始减少,又有要过节的意思了~跑了一趟之后,没什么收获,回来心也收不住,就在网上闲逛看新闻八卦。注意到今天的一条消息是朱棣文要被提名能源部长,要是真得就好了,至少代表在美华人地位提升,新的政府注意到华裔人才的能力。当然有人可能要说我们又开始自作多情,不过我确实看到有一条报道说:Chu, as an Asian-American, could add diversity to the new government.也不知道几年之后,像我以前说的一样,Steven 的弟弟,一个extremely accomplished  lawyer会不会也走进美国政府~

又乱操心了,下午太阳出来,开始暖和一点。 如果可以就是这样呆在房间里,什么也不需要担心,懒洋洋的就好了!


12月8日

今天走了狗S运

太过分了~Waterview一定要让Residents看好他们自己的狗阿!

12月5日

I must have done something wrong!

所以贴一首王菲的《人间》  
11月29日

腐烂的生活开出一朵发霉的花

放假的好处就是怎么睡觉都不会有罪恶感~~
11月14日

The Science of Happiness

--Random Notes from Tal Ben-Shahar’s talk, a very inspiring one

Lesson 1: The permission to be human;

It is natural, it is normal, we all have up-and-downs;

Be honest, be open, when it is not fine, feel not fine;

Distinction between emotion and behaviour;

Accept the emotion and then decide how to behave according to the emotion;

 

Lesson2:  Simplifying;

It is ok, it is fine;

Accept your emotion unconditionally;

Do less, not more;

Quantity affects quality;

Say “Yes” by  saying “No”;

 

Lesson3: Meaning and Pleasure;

Self-Concordant Goals:

Assigned with personal interests and values;

Pleasure and Meaning;

Benefits of self-concordant goals;

Success, hapiness, health

Macro(life)  and micro

 

Lesson 4: Cultivating Healthy Relationships

Long-term relationships;

5:1 Positivity/Negativity Ratio;

Being Known rather than Validated;

 

Lesson 5: The Mind-Body Connection;

Excising;

Mindfulness Mediation;

Lesson 6: Focusing on the Positive;

Additional money does not make adifference in the long run;

We do not learn to fail, we fail to learn;

Maintaining freshness through mindful focus;

Say thank you to the world!

 

11月6日

24-Hour Flu/Drunk

记得有一次和Orange师姐聊天说到失眠,然后我说我试着数羊还有想象自己漂在大海上,结果都不管用,师姐说喝点小酒会管用。那天我去超市看见一个老奶奶对着那个摆酒的架子的一种看样子是新牌子的酒左看右看, 然后我就过去搭讪:Is it good?她笑着说:I don't know, I just wanna try it!于是我也拿了一瓶,想着失眠的时候派上用场,说:I wanna try it TOO~ 可是后来证明这个决定是很麻烦的,原来酒瓶里面是木塞,我没有这种开瓶器。想着将来也许还会用得上,我就买了一个。那瓶酒才两块多,而这个开瓶器价格是它的三倍。

前天晚上睡不着,我终于觉得这瓶酒要派上用场了,然后就喝了一些,想着马上睡着,明天晚点起也没关系。昨天早晨我大概不到八点就醒了,而且头脑不是通常那种恩,再睡一会糊里糊涂的,而是异常的清醒。然后我就觉得头特别疼,就想一定是喝多了;可是我的膝关节也疼,难道是我最近作仰卧起坐和下蹲的原因;好像其他关节也有点疼,而且我在发烧。 我终于意识到一个事实:我生病了!在黑暗中我摸了摸五官还都在原处,舒了一口气。我想一定是最近我断断续续的感冒还有我的亚健康终于爆发,所以虽然我一点睡意都没有,还是在床上辗转了几个小时直到室友说要去吃饭。于是跑出去吃饭,可是吃了几口就一点胃口都没了,结果都带回来。然后去办公室给老板回了mail之后就跑回家倒头便睡,迷迷糊糊的觉得自己冷热交加,出了很多汗,然后就是醒醒睡睡,晚上7,8点又回了老板几封mail,然后吃了点水果喝水睡觉出汗,大概11点的时候终于觉得想吃东西了,我意识到自己要好了,本来还想今天无论如何要去看医生了。然后吃了带回来的东西,看了看新闻就睡着了。今天早晨起来,头疼关节疼都没了,也几乎不发烧了,90%好了,我真想说:

健康真好呀!


10月28日

Update~

感冒终于爆发,肯定是因为最近早晚温差太大, 而我也像是中了剧毒一样忽冷忽热。体质越来越下降,考虑到身材越来越趋于梨形,决定每天早晚作仰卧起坐,记得小学的时候体育测验我一分钟也可以做上40几个没问题啊,现在用10倍的时间做这么多,然后肚皮还在隐隐作痛;

上周日上课,班上的一位女士说她找不到那个video的网址,然后我就告诉她,她说,哦,Gena说她去看了没找到;我作出疑惑的表情表示不知道谁是 Gena,她就说是坐在她旁边的那位女士,我才恍然大悟原来她们是好朋友,怪不得每次都有说有笑特别熟落.上课的时候同我之前说话的那位对老师说明年也许她就去欧洲,去比利时,然后还要给她的孩子们请法语老师上课;老师说孩子们的爸爸不会讲法语吗。那位女士说孩子们的爸爸是美国人,她们离婚了,然后她现在的男友是比利时人,他们打算明年结婚。然后她又说,其实Gena和她前夫结婚了,他们是一对现在!然后我又发挥了八卦的本质,心里想,这样的情节,不应该是她和Gena是死敌或者不相往来互当空气的吗,可是她们还是有说有笑还那么好,至少看上去,觉得挺drama的.

最近在youtube上看了好多电影啊,都是年轻的片,年轻真好啊,可惜。。。昨天开车的时候听到一巨好听的歌,结果晚上就被我搜到,就是Cranberries的Zombie,听了N遍,不要说我old(不得不说,Faye的声音和她的真像阿!!!)


10月22日

Why do all good things come to an end

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

*Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end*

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

*Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end*

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

*Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end*

------------------------------------------------------------

脑袋里突然就跳出这首歌,然后就在youtube上找来听~虽然这本应该是一首伤感的歌,Nelly却唱得蛮欢快的,我可以一直听这首歌也不会烦,歌词也很好,是啊,why do all good things come to an end??所以虽然这也算一首不新的歌了,还是推荐!

-- All good things(come to an end)



10月8日

When can I quit google?

最近用google的时候老是出来那个“系统怀疑你是机器人,请输入确认码”的页面,真是令人恼火。不过想想我每天google无数次,感觉没它就不能正常生活了,什么时候我能quit google呢?

10月3日

从何时起,我也变成了一个内心充满anger的人

我常常惊讶于一些人的愤世嫉俗,也会想为什么他们会充满愤怒,这些anger是从哪里来的 ,可是今天,我突然意识到,我也变成了一个内心充满anger的人。
 
且不说今天的引子又是令人讨厌的Waterview,也不说我是有道理的,他们的staff无知+lying,总之我发现心中有一股怨气, 我觉得这样不好。人生路很长,有一些事情也要总结学习:
1)在和这样的人或者机构打交道,如果你先lose tempor,你自己就先输了。最近在咱班谁的blog上又见这句话,可惜我都是在事情结束才想起来,告诉自己不要生气不要生气,可是我今天又不争气的输了;
2)清楚自己争取的是什么,如果最后发现argue的东西已经远离了自己的初衷,那很无聊;
3)和1)相似,要保持镇定,讲话有清晰有条理;
4)如果一件事情,对自己却没什么实质影响的,适当放一马,就当攒rp,不然有可能还给自己凭添烦恼;
5)自己有道理有关切身利益的事情,一定要把自己的道理讲清楚把利益争取回来;
6)涉及利益的,proof talks。所以有关程序的,一定要把每个留paper proof之类的,不清楚的,要求对方弄清楚;
7)遇到不合理的事情时,不是先生其,而是去分析,争取回来自己的利益;
 
最近的郁闷事还很多的,要攒rp,身心健康~
9月28日

Update~

Most of the time I am not trying but only whining~